Sunday, December 7, 2008

(sing Jefferson theme song here) Movin' on up.... or out ... whatever

Ok Ok Ok... I am finally sitting down to update ....

If you had the slight chance last week to catch my blog before I deleted the post you may already know what I am going to tell you... but if you didn't I'll tell you briefly what has been happening over the course of the last few weeks...

My last post (that I deleted) was much more eloquently written but I found myself after posting it struggling to decide if I should leave it up... so I figured if I was struggling about it I should take it down...

Bill and I have decided to take some time away from each other... and by take time, I mean for no better words, break up and move out... he has moved his stuff out of my house and into his own house that he is in the process of purchasing... a lot to digest in just three measly weeks.

I guess this time in my life fits the old adage "if you love someone set them free; if they come back they are yours, if they don't they never were"

With all of this that has been going on I have run the gamut of emotions - sad, angry, bitter, lonely, happy (yes even happy)... but I finally feel peace. I am at peace with the decision... I still get angry and sad and bitter and lonely and happy... but through all of it I am peaceful because I know that I will be ok.

Bill was/is a huge part of my life but our relationship didn't define who I was or what I was it only enhanced me and my I know that I will be ok... because I am strong.

So with this new place I find myself at - I feel lucky to have a new beginning... and a new time to focus on me and my goals... to find a new job that is perfect for me and a new chapter in my life that is still unwritten (I totally just referenced the Hills theme song)

Thanks for taking time to read my little blog...

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Erinn said...

I am so proud of you :) I love you! SO ready for girls night tomorrow!!